I Support Other Parents With Their Child’s Addiction. Then My Own Son Needed Help.

How do you apply your own advice to yourself?

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My 26-year-old son has been struggling with a substance use disorder for over six years. When I entered this frightening journey of addiction, I was without support and unsure how to respond. I have watched my son drop out of college, attend five treatment centers, stay at eight sober living homes, have two stints living in his car and two on the streets. I have watched him struggle with depression, anxiety, trauma and numerous other unresolved mental issues. For me, it has been a living hell where I have felt guilt, isolation, sadness, fear and all of the negative emotions which go with loving a child with a substance use disorder.

But I refuse to lie down and go gracefully into this abyss.

I threw myself into learning all about this disease, as well as the underlying diagnosis, and how I could best help my son. I went back to school, began a support group, joined other support groups, and became a Parent Coach. Most importantly, I can proudly say I have evolved as a parent and as a person using CRAFT tools which has taught me essential skills like positive reinforcement, natural consequences and self-care. I became better prepared than ever to keep my own life together while motivating my son to change and find treatment.

Very recently, I watched my son have three large beers and become a person I did not know, as he initiated a belligerent and aggressive encounter with police who were not even addressing him. The next thing I knew, my son was being handcuffed and brought to the ground because he would not stop his verbal abuse and had become combative. I was beside myself, pleading with my beloved son to stop – to keep his mouth closed. It was like being in the Twilight Zone seeing my well-raised young man taken away in custody to a detention center. At the time, I was visiting him out of state and I did not have a car, a support system or a single contact in the area – nor did I even know where they were taking him.

My head was spinning, however, I decided to summon the resilience I needed to help myself and help him. From my experience as a Parent Coach and my recent education on addiction, I knew the best thing to do was to let him sit in jail, not bail him out and not visit him. Essentially, I was letting natural consequences happen.

Of course, allowing consequences like this to happen sounds easy when I am advising someone else. But it was so very different when I was experiencing my own heartache and maternal desire to “save” my son from himself. Communication, although non-verbal, would be key. By not bailing him out of a situation he created, I was “telling” him that I was giving him the dignity to either fail or succeed on his own. He was solely responsible for the consequences of his actions, and he would be the only one responsible for the rewards.

I was not looking for a lighter sentence, just the right sentence. I knew, however, that I had to do something positive, and decided to stay an extra couple of days and head into the courts to speak with someone who might be knowledgeable with his sentencing. After a few hours, I found the judge’s clerk and went in, not only as a parent but as a person who coached others like myself, and asked the court to consider sentencing my son to a diversion program where he would get mandatory treatment versus jail time. I remained strong in my support for his recovery and not in support of his self-sabotage and addiction.

A day after my conversation with the court clerk, I was on a plane back home. My son’s video sentencing was done while I was en route, and it wasn’t until later that evening that I found out his sentencing. It was truly the best-case scenario as the judge gave him a fine (which, of course, he will pay), a year of probation and compulsory impulse-control classes for three months.

When my son called me after his sentencing, he was extremely apologetic and said all the right things – and, of course, I was hopeful. I also know the reality: Unless he truly wants to change, things will remain the same. I did not lecture and I did not plead during our conversation, but simply explained what I experienced while watching his arrest and what I witnessed as to his actions. He knows, because I have told him more times than I can count, that he is loved. We know he is capable, we can help him if he chooses recovery – and yet it is up to him, and only him, to find a better life.

I am extremely proud of myself for having made that difficult decision to allow my son to experience the natural consequences of his actions. I felt empowered by both my inactions (not bailing him out) and my actions (finding a positive way to support his potential recovery). I continue to feel good about my role in his life and how I handled this painful situation. I was able to control what I could control and let go of what I was unable to control.

I know I cannot completely change my son, but I know that I can change how his actions affect me. I hold onto hope and I will continue to offer him my support, compassion and love.

Learn More About Natural Consequences

It’s natural to want to protect your son or daughter from the consequences of their behaviors, but life can be a great teacher if you let your child learn directly from their experiences. Watch this video to learn more about how to use natural consequences to help your child change.

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    Carrie Haight

    April 17, 2018 at 10:16 AM

    What do we do when we have been letting natural consequences take their course, have not been lecturing over and over, and have been supportive of recovery efforts and have not tolerated using behavior? To the best of our ability we have done this and last night our son overdosed in our home and survived after being taken to ER. He absolutely feels horrible, remorseful but we also have two other sons, age 19 and 16 who live in our home. Advice please…

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      Candice Besson

      April 17, 2018 at 12:13 PM

      Thanks for your message Carrie. We have forwarded your message to one of of our helpline specialists who can help better answer your question, and she will be reaching out to you shortly. Please do not hesitate to call our helpline at 1-855-DRUGFREE in the future. Thank you. -Partnership for Drug-Free Kids

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    Thomas Benner

    December 26, 2017 at 3:04 PM

    Sometimes the best and hardest thing to do is get the hell out of the way.

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    Larry R.

    December 26, 2017 at 11:42 AM

    Thank you for sharing this story. It’s one thing to be able to advise other parents to do the right thing, but a lot harder to make the wise decision for your own family, especially when it goes against your natural instincts as a parent to protect your child.

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