The other side.

1 1

I've dealt with addiction my entire life. I, myself, am not the addict -- it is my mother.

She has been dealing with addiction ever since I was born and has been a constant battle even too this day almost 24 years later. I have to say that it is a miracle she is still alive, this last decade has had many death experiences and she has always come back. That I one thing I admire about my mother, she is a fighter. Always fighting this demon of addiction and showing herself and family that she can get clean.

There have been many ups and downs as, expected, and sometimes I wonder if the only way it would end is if addiction took her life like it almost has many times before. Yet it hasn't. This hasn't made my life a walk in the park. I've learned a lot from this over the years and my outlook on addiction has changed so much during. I've gone from not really knowing what to do other than act out, to protecting her at all costs from family etc, to completely separating myself from it. None have these has changed anything other than my attitude towards it. You can only hope for the best when it comes to recovery but in back of my head I'm always wondering when the next horrible phone call is.

When it comes to someone in your life going through this, you have to take care of yourself. That is the most important thing. Learn how to deal with those hurt and lost emotions. Learn how to breathe deeply and realize it is not your responsibility to try and change addiction nor the person addiction has gotten a hold of. Love yourself, take care of yourself, surround yourself with the positives but never forget what addiction has taught you, whether your affected or an addict yourself. I didn't type this out to hurt anyone or discourage recovery, I'm just here to remind everyone to take care, love, hurt and recover.

Show Your Love

Add a heart to this story. A heart can mean support, appreciation, sympathy, compassion, understanding — or any other heartfelt sentiment you wish to impart.

    User Picture

    Julie

    October 26, 2016 at 12:13 PM

    Thank you for sharing your story with us, Lynnea.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *