I am 43 years old and an addict. I have been an addict since I was 7- I started smoking. I have been fighting it ever sense. It is the hardest thing to do in someone's life. Close to death. I mess up sometimes but I never give up. That is what you have to do. Fight and keep going back to meeting or rehab. What ever works for you. You are the only one that can figure that out. I am still fighting today and will for the rest of my life. This is what I have to live with. If you have someone that is an addict or you are an addict, keep fighting it does get better by each day that passes. And believe in yourself and a higher power. It will always get you though even when you mess up. And tell yourself when you do mess up, it's ok and start again. There is something better.
And for those out there that are not addicts. DON'T EVER TRY IT! I don't care what your friends say or boyfriend, it will hurt you, you will get hooked the first time. What ever they tell you don't believe it. Because you will. Don't ever try to fit in with anyone. If they are a friend they will fit in with you. If they love you they will love you anyway. If not the drug is what is talking, not them, so they are not a friend or boyfriend or even a family member. Make your own.