Addiction Life

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I started out just having fun with my friends drinking, smoking bud. Then things progressed slowly. I was around a lot of drug dealing and everything that comes with the really good and the really bad.

I was locked up in a court-ordered drug offender program at 15. I was arrested later at 18 with pills and pot. 2 felonies at 18. I felt like I had no choice but to live that life. I graduated and had an AA degree but I stopped the 2-year program I was doing at the hospital because I was using and selling Oxycontin seemed like better idea at the time. Obviously it wasn't.

My addiction robbed me of a happy fulfilling life for 20 years. It took me leaving my family and having to live with people I didn't really care for. I learned a lot about myself and why I kept doing the same destructive behavior for years. Life sucks sometimes and if you don't react in the right way your f***ed. Its having the right tools and friends and support as well as perseverance. Without those things you will fail or be very unhappy.

I OD'd 4 times and by God's grace I was found and brought back to life ever time. I thought opiates were my joy in heaven but they were my HELL. I will have to deal with this daily for the rest of my life.

I want to go back to school and finish up my degree to help people realize that drugs are a lie and they robbed me of a much happier better life. I'm very lucky I now have a home and, most importantly, I have a family that I almost threw away.

I would like to help anyone I can. You can have a life without drugs, its actually pretty cool.

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    May 1, 2017 at 1:27 PM

    Hi Patricia,
    I know you are looking for a response from Brian, but I thought i could offer a few words of support. It sounds like your son finds solace in pot that he can’t seem to find anywhere else. His situation is further complicated by his depression, which can really trigger apathy, feelings of hopelessness and despair, in addition to robbing him of his energy to do anything healthy.

    Sometimes it helps to think about what he wants and entice him using positive reinforcements. As an example, if he does anything that is healthy, notice it in a positive way using words, a text, a hug, etc. Some parents will suggest to their kids that if they do XXX (go to the gym, take 5 piano lessons, go on a hike, etc.) the parents will give the teen something the teen wants. You know your son best, but often what is appealing to teens are video games, a gift card to a coffee shop or movie tickets, etc.

    Another thought might be to contact your local mental health organization to see if there are recovery coaches your son can talk to. Usually they are a free service with people who have walked in your son’s shoes and can help address his concerns and mentor him to some degree.

    I would also suggest getting a copy of Beyond Addiction by Dr. Jeffrey Foote as he offers a lot of sound advice for parents was to how to help a child in your situation. You’ll find the book in our bookstore under the LEARN tab above.

    You are also welcome to call our helpline for additional support at 1-855-DRUGFREE. The parent specialists would be happy to help you and there is no fee for the service.

    There is hope for your son so please reach out if we can assist you.
    All the best,

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    April 28, 2017 at 7:32 PM

    Hello Bryan,
    Thanks for your brave story. You had the strength in you!!.

    My son will turn 16 in few days. he has suffered his entire life with depression, but we originally didn’t see it. When he was diagnosed at age 11 we tried meds, he said they gave him suicidal thought and I was always against meds. HIs dad convinced me to send him to a boarding school(even though we had no money, after A LOT of work we got the school district to pay for it). My son came back way worse, and soon after I found out he learned about about drugs there.
    He has changed schools at least 7 times and still got NO motivation to do well. It is very sad to see his suffering and self destruction. He doesnt eat much and if he does it is only bad “food”. He holds lots of anger and negativity in his heart and I know he feels pot(and God knows what else) is the only way he feels ok.

    He declines ANY type of help or to try sports, gym, learning an instrument, anything that would occupy his time in a good way.
    What would you advice?. Would it help for you to talk to him???.
    Thank you soooooo much and God Bless you every day of your life

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    April 5, 2017 at 8:41 PM

    Thanks for the hope Bryan. Congratulations on your recovery & wanting to share your experience with others!!

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    March 14, 2017 at 1:08 PM

    Thank you for sharing your story with us, Bryan. Congratulations on your recovery. I wish you the best of luck.

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